3/12/2008

You Say, I Only Hear What I Want To...

Hello, my name is Josh, and I'm an obsessive thinker.

And over the past few months, I've had a lot to think about. However, I've recently learned that the difference between meditative thinking (what I thought I was doing) and worrying (what I was actually doing) is what you're focusing your thoughts on. The funny thing about worrying is that it really doesn't do anything but bring you down.

So I decided to use it to my advantage...

When I got up yesterday I decided that, every time I found myself awash in a sea of worry, I would pray.

A couple of weeks ago my friend, Rod, gave me some good advice. He said that there's a big difference between praying for God to show us what He wants and praying for God to bless what we want. So, that's what I prayed.

Every time I worried, I stopped and prayed for God to help me move past what I want, and asked for what He wants for my life. Editor's Note: Which, if you've ever prayed this prayer before, you know how dangerous it can be. This served a dual purpose for me: first, it helped me to see exactly how much I worry. Second, it helped me take something that I know Satan can use to squash my spirit, and use it as a reminder to go to God with my troubles.

I continued in this practice today.

To be honest with you, there were times when it got quite annoying. I had no idea how many times throughout the day my thoughts turn to worry. I would find myself in the middle of reading when I would have to stop and pray. Ugh...

The reason why I share this is that I hope it serves as a testament that, with God's help, we can conquer anything. Even ourselves.

Oh... There it goes again. Time to pray...

1 comment:

Mike Lovato said...

Good thoughts, man. You and I are VERY similar in this regard.