I felt called to serve Him vocationally about 17 years ago.
I began my education to serve him 14 years ago.
I began my training almost 9 years ago.
And I started my first pastoral job a little over 7 years ago.
In all that time, I've been told of the importance of spending time in God's Word. I wish I could say that, for the whole 22 years, doing that has been a priority to me. But, to be honest, it hasn't. But I can say that, as an adult (and as a vocational minister), it has.
One thing that's always amazed me about the Bible is how God speaks to me so specifically through it. Now, I don't mean specific as in "to me only". I mean specific as in He speaks to events or relationships or troubles in my life. He doesn't speak to me in the form of general "fortune cookie" advice. He goes straight for my heart.
One of the most recent examples of this occurred a few weeks ago as I was spending time one morning reading Psalm 112.
Sometime in 2011, I had been using a youversion Bible reading plan that took me through the books of Psalm and Proverbs in 31 days. During that time, the majority of the passages I felt God speaking to me through dealt primarily with waiting. Why? I was waiting on an answer from Him about something. But, on this particular early July morning, as I sat in a church in Atlanta, GA, God grabbed my attention with this passage:
Surely the righteous will never be shaken;They will have no fear of bad news? Whoa. How is that even possible?
they will be remembered forever.
They will have no fear of bad news; their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the Lord.
Their hearts are secure, they will have no fear; in the end they will look in triumph on their foes. Psalm 112:6-8 NIV
It's simple. (NOT easy.) the second line of verse 7 answers it. Their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the Lord.
This Psalm reminded me of a post that I wrote 5 years ago. In it, I quoted a line from Anne Rice's book, Christ the Lord: Out of Egypt.
"Joseph doesn't have to understand, because Joseph trusts in the Lord completely."That had stuck with me at the time. Mainly because I could not separate my own understanding from God's trustworthiness. Surely, if God is doing something I'll understand it. If God does it, it has to make sense. Right? Wrong. But it took me some time to learn that.
Upon reading these verses from Psalm 112 last month, I felt the Lord nudging me about my trust. Am I trusting Him completely? Or am I trying to BE Him? To control things? To make my life and my world into what I think it should be?
The longer I've known God, the more He's proved His trustworthiness. The more I've read, studied, and meditated on His Word, the more I've seen this character trait displayed and talked about. But, the more I've allowed (let's be honest here, sometimes forced) myself to radically trust Him, the more I've learned that's it's never a mistake.
Question: What area of your life is God encouraging you to trust Him more in?